May Foodie Penpal Reveal Day!!!!

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Happy Foodie Penpal Reveal Day!!!

This was my first month participating, and both my husband and I had a lot of fun putting together our box and using the goodies we received!

This month I got a box from Kayla from Plymouth, Massachusetts…. here was the box:

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ImageWell, what do we have here???

 

I committed a faux pas and didn’t take pictures of the items OUT of the box, nor do I remember exactly what they were….

But I will tell you this;

EVERYTHING was delicious!

We particularly enjoyed the Boston Baked Beans candies 

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(My husband hadn’t seen these in YEARS, and was giddy as a school girl to see them)

AND these little heaven-sent tidbits….

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Oh my goodness were THEY delicious…..

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And they didn’t last long….

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My husband devouring the last one

They were delicious. If you can find them, buy 5 boxes, and send me one.

We also got a bag of Choco Chomp cereal: Image

 

(Which we found at our grocery store yesterday, SCORE! )

And onion soup mix and a delicious organic microwave-ready fried rice packet. 

YUM.

Needless to say, we enjoyed our box!

THANK YOU KAYLA!!!!!!!!

I look forward to next month’s box! We are trying to find a mix of local and unique yummies to send out… It’s really a lot of fun. Sign up! You won’t regret it and if you don’t like it, don’t sign up for the next month.

YAY FOODIE PENPALS!

 

 

There’s a 6 year old Humpback Whale in my Dining Room

I ordered a new pair of running shoes the other night!!!!! (Monday night to be exact)

They showed up today!

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     Oh…. I’m ready….

Thank you Roadrunner Sports for VIP warp speed shipping

(And for having a warehouse in Ohio)

BEHOLD! The Brooks Ariel 12!!!!!!!!

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I wore the Ariel many years ago when I was fitted and due to their “motion control” aspect. I overpronate like whoa.

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They’re not the most fun-looking running shoes around, unfortunately, but they’re great!

So far…..

I wanted to go out for a run this afternoon and break them in, you know, run around the park while the boy played.

But I guess he punched some kid in the throat today at school, so he’s in timeout. I got a text from my husband before I found out what he’d done. All it said was:

“Don’t kill him when he gets home. I’ll do it. He’s in trouble.”

GREAT!

So all afternoon I wondered what in the hell he had done. I didn’t hear any sirens going off, nor did I see black smoke on the horizon, so that was at least a plus…

But yeah, punched some kid in the throat………. I’m thankful I’m done with school in a few weeks, we will be able to take him to counseling now, since the school didn’t get back to me the third, fourth, or fifth time I asked them about it……………

He was sitting at the dining room table until he decided to slump so far down in the chair he ended up on the floor. After some ‘gentle coaxing’ I got him to stand up. I’m doing a great job at keeping my voice (and blood pressure) down by straight up ignoring him.

He is currently whining and trying to get my illicit some reaction out of me by raising the decibel and length of his whine every few breaths.

Little does he know, I used to listen to “Songs of the Humpback Whale” alllllllllll the time as a kid.

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I can do this all day….

So needless to say, I don’t get to break in my shoes today. Thankfully I’m off tomorrow and will get to do so! I’m excited! Justin and I bought kayaks last week and haven’t gotten to use them yet- it’s rained every day since we’ve bought them. Fingers crossed for tomorrow! Super upper body and core workout, while enjoying the scenery and soaking up some shine!

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My Memorial Day Run

Last week I was highly unmotivated and had cranked to a friend about not wanting to run in the rain or the wind…. She, a half-marathon runner, promptly grounded me with “Um, never use the weather as an excuse not to run, I ran 13.1 miles in the windy rainy cold in April”(The Glass City Marathon)

I stood corrected.

So today, the first time running since my wonderful “cheerleaders”, I ran in the rain.

It was beautiful. It was cleansing. It was motivating.

I’ve been “running free” for the past week and a half or so (not totally intentionally, I just have a bad habit of STILL not charging up my ipod….) and the lack of music or timing or anything really opens up the ability to get your thinking on. I HIGHLY recommend running without music or eyeballing your watch at LEAST once a week. It’s good for the soul.

As I ran, I thought of the sacrifices our soldiers make for our freedoms. I thought of how I am allowed to run out in the rain, or how I’m allowed to wear whatever I want, do whatever I want. All thanks to our soldiers’ sacrifices.

As I ran, I passed a man walking, he laughed and asked “Getting a little wet, huh?” I just responded, “It’s okay, for what our soldiers do, I can handle this.”

He agreed.

It gave me chills, and a boost of energy, and took me past my mile and allowed me to finish up my third lap. I’m proud of myself, and my country!

I hope everyone has a safe and respectful Memorial Day!

Highly Unmotivated

I just don’t want to do anything today. Or all week for that matter. I’m fed up, and am getting that crawling, fizzing, annoyed-at-the-world feeling buzzing in my soul. 

I ran a mile the other night around the park up the street from me. Furthest I’d ever run without stopping. I should’ve been ecstatic, but with each lap there was a group of LATE teens EARLY 20 year olds cheering me on with 

HEY CHUB CHUB”

“RUN FATTY, RUN!”

and my personal favorite:

“HERE SHE COMES AGAIN, I CAN FEEL THE GROUND SHAKING”

Are you fucking serious?

So, needless to say I kept my mouth shut (I have to think about my nursing license now, assault and battery does not the Ohio Board of Nursing like……) After I finished my mile I quit and walked home, highly discouraged, disgusted and just ready to cry.

My husband is not the best at consoling, although he did say I should have whipped out a metal baton and ran after them screaming like a crazy person….. He initiated sex later that evening as a way to make me feel better, and I participated, but my head was not in it. I was too self-conscious and depressed. 

I wish I had the confidence to just walk up to the group of people and strike up a conversation, or just start laughing, “Haha yeah I am a bit chubby but you know what I JUST RAN A MILE. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WORTHWHILE LATELY???”

So yeah. Not motivated. And my son has a new card to play when I discipline him, he starts in with the “I’m so mean and I don’t love you, I want to live with my REAL mom etc. etc”

Which, I know I shouldn’t take personally, but I do. He has been spoken to numerous times about “filling my bucket” and how that is not nice or appropriate, how it is mean etc etc

“Oh he doesn’t know what he’s saying.”

Eh, Yeah. He does. He wants to hurt my feelings.

I don’t know. I’m just down and angry at the world. I just want to sleep. 

So, needless to say, I’ve only ran twice this week, and haven’t done any of my HIIT exercises. Maybe tomorrow…..

 

There have been victories this week though- we paid off our car, are buying kayaks tonight, I was offered a DAY SPOT at work when I graduate (!!!!!!!!) and I sternly voiced my dissatisfaction with the trash company about how I established pickup last Monday and have yet to receive my trash cans. When I was told I wouldn’t get the cans by tomorrow’s pickup day, I said that was completely unacceptable and asked to speak to the supervisor. I got a voicemail, and left her pretty much the same message. I didn’t think anything of it and was pretty sure I got the big “FU” from them in their office.

But when I got home, a new trash can and recycling can were sitting on our lawn.

 

BOO YAH.

So there are things to be positive about. I just have to remember:

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I will kick myself in the ass and get going on this. I will earn my body. I wish I could go up to those people in 6 months time and say something……

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That’s better.

Congratulations to my Grandaddy!!!!!!!!!

First, I want to congratulate my Grandaddy for graduating today with his Bachelors of Political Science from Duke University, at 80 years of age!!! This degree was 60 years in the making! Don’t EVER sell yourself short- you truly can do ANYTHING if you put your mind to it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I am sorry I was not there to celebrate with him! 

Check this video out of him- it is soooo cool!!!!!!! (it’s only 2 min long, check it out!)

Duke’s Most Senior Senior

 

Okay, enough gushing over him 😀

Oh man this week is going to FLY.

I am going to be hard pressed to get some working out in over the next few days… I am jumping through my final flaming hoops for nursing school and begin my preceptorship at 3am tonight (!!!!!!!) at one of the local area hospitals. They put in 3a-3p shifts there. What was I thinking!??? Hey, it’s only for 4 days, I can do 4 days!!! (Mon and Tue are back to back, then I don’t do another one till next Sun, then the following Tue) 

I can do that!

I totally had a gorge fest day yesterday and paid for it all day today pooping my brains out.

You’re welcome for sharing.

 

Just a reminder as to why I shouldn’t do that. Ever.

Ever. Again.

Anyway this was kind of a pointless post, I’m off to bed because I have to get up at 1:30!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH

 

Oh, Happy Mother’s Day to all! I got breakfast and a dozen roses!!!

And Payton made me a beach paper weight with seashells and beach glass 🙂

Sweet. He wrote out on a piece of paper….

My mom is like a prenses (at first I thought he’d written penis)

She is like a raenbeau

She has long brown hair and brown eyes and we like to go swimming together.

Best Mother’s Day EVER!

Confessions: I am an Emotional Eater

Yup. I eat when I am down, or stressed, or angry or bored.

I’ve known for a while, but it really hit me tonight when my husband went over to his friend’s house to play video games for the evening….

As SOON as he left, I wanted to eat. I’m talking the Jeep wasn’t out of sight yet and I was headed for the fridge…..

Mind you, we had JUST eaten dinner…..

A delicious dinner, of chicken and sauteed veggies.

A filling and healthy dinner, one that I was happily satisfied by eating, and I go all

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And I wanted to gorge because eating makes me feel good. Because I enjoy eating, especially tasty food. Whatever is short circuited in my brain to release endorphins when I eat food has me by the jugular. It’s as if I can’t help it. My eyes roll back in my head like a Great White Shark going in for the kill, and the next thing I know the kitchen is a war zone.

 

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Whoa.

 

Not too bad of a choice, I guess, but still….

Totally and completely unnecessary. 

Fueled by emotion, not by hunger, or needs.

And I wonder why my weight see-saws (no, I really don’t wonder)

I do it because I’m stressed, one way or another.

We are in the critical zone, you know, the few days before payday, when we’ve pretty much run out of everything- healthy, non healthy, you name it, we ain’t got it! I guess it would be better if I had gone on a celery frenzy, or quinoa or strawberries….?

I guess….

It’s frustrating. I need to channel those feelings and drink a glass of water instead

(I did after, does that count for something?)

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On a positive note……. I completed Week 2 of Couch to 5k!

And I’m down 2 pounds (well, that was before Gorge Fest 2013)

I drank my 64 oz of water today, and then some…..

And once my shame meal settles, it’ll be time for some YOGA!

 

What are your binge triggers? 

What is your “safe food”

(Mine, obviously, is a PB&J. Crunchy Peanut Butter. Lately it’s been grape jelly. Whole Grain bread)

My 101 in 1001 List

Today I didn’t do anything “fitness” related, sorry to say. 

I did, however, do some major gardening, so that kind of counts, right???

 

RIGHT??????????

 

Tomorrow I’m running again, and yoga-ing. And shredding, or whatever it is Jillian Michaels has me doing.

I also drank a crap ton of water today, which isn’t too difficult for me, given that I’ve been getting into the swing of this for a while. My problem is I prefer ice in my water, and we do not have an ice maker…. and the bag of ice in our freezer has freezer burned together into a giant iceberg… and I don’t own an ice pick.

I also, today, instead of studying for my Life Span final on WEDNESDAY (go me) came up with my own 101 GOALS in 1001 DAYS. Check out the page above ^ to keep tabs on me. 

Here is my list:

My 101 in 1001

Starting: May 7, 2013

Ending…… uh……. (carry the two……..) February 2, 2016

WHEW

I’ve seen a few of these 101 GOALS in 1001 DAYS, and decided  I was going to set myself up a list and see what happens…… The premise is, given 1001 days (roughly 2 and ¾ years) you can accomplish all 101 goals for yourself. The goals must be MEASURABLE and SPECIFIC (none of that ambiguous stuff) Also, 1001 days is a longer time span then 1 year, giving you “many seasons” to organize and plan for some of the biggies on the list…….

So here it goes…

  1. Lose 50 lbs (Currently 193.8 as of 5/7)
  2. Run a 5k
  3. Run 10 5ks
  4. Run a half marathon
  5. Run 5 half marathons
  6. Run a full marathon
  7. Run 3 full marathons
  8. Own a blogsite (www.radiantrunner.com)
  9. Obtain my RN
  10. Participate in a sprint Triathalon
  11. Organize a running group
  12. Get my husband to run a 5k with me
  13. Hold a gallery event for my photography
  14. Start a boudoir photography business!
  15. Laser Hair Removal
  16. Get 5 new tattoos
  17. Start a food canning group
  18. Paint a portrait
  19. Finish a crocheting project
  20. Shoot a deer with my bow
  21. Write and publish a short story
  22. Get to a “healthy” BMI (currently 33%)
  23. Learn how to use photoshop
  24. Learn how to play the harmonica
  25. Cook 30 meals with my pressure cooker
  26. Prepare a week’s worth of food on Sunday 15 times
  27. Sing at open mic night 1 time
  28. Go hiking in Colorado with our cousins
  29. Go hiking in North Carolina
  30. Complete Project 365
  31. Kayak around PIB in less than 2 hours (currently don’t know how long it takes, will try it once and revise this)
  32. Do yoga before and after work 50 times
  33. Be able to perform a side crow pose
  34. Do couple’s yoga with my husband 50 times
  35. Be able to perform the scorpion pose
  36. Eat drink 8oz of water 500 days
  37. Put away $5000 in savings  (~$75  a paycheck)
  38. Save up my spare change for 1001 days (We’ll see about this!!!)
  39. Learn how to Identify 15 constellations
  40. Get my CCW
  41. Get 100 followers on my blog
  42. Host 5 giveaways
  43. Try 30 different recipes/cook my way through a cookbook
  44. Make homemade whole wheat pasta
  45. Take a kick boxing class
  46. Take a boxing class
  47. Learn how to drive stick shift
  48. Have boudoir photos taken of myself and my husband
  49. Get an indoor biking platform
  50. Go rock climbing
  51. Take vitamins 365 times
  52. Make a recipe book/blog section
  53. Finish playing Skyrim
  54. Meet and run with one blogger
  55. Plant a garden for an elderly person
  56. Complete the MS Bike to the Bay
  57. Have a 6 month stockpile in my basement of food, toiletries and household items
  58. Finish the upstairs bathroom
  59. Update the kitchen
  60. Go on a date 20 times with just my hubby
  61. Take a ballroom dance class
  62. Make 20 DIY projects off pintrest (I am a firm believer nobody actually does any of the things they pin!)
  63. Learn how to make sushi
  64. Get a design for our wine
  65. Adopt a wild mustang
  66. See the wild ponies of Chincoteague Island
  67. Learn how to filet a fish
  68. Write out our wills
  69. Make soap
  70. Go maple-syruping (can’t remember what it’s called right now)
  71. Have my wisdom teeth removed (TERRIFIED)
  72. Make something to sell (and sell it!) on ETSY
  73. Learn how to hang10 on the IndoBoard
  74. Make cheese
  75. Do a detox cleanse
  76. Send out Homemade Christmas Cards (both years)
  77. Have a booth at a farmer’s market
  78. Get matching tattoos with my sisters
  79. Make a sundress
  80. Visit NYC with my cousins
  81. Have sex (at least) once a day for 30 days (5 times over) 😉
  82. Make 30 recipes from the Ball canning cookbook
  83. Kill an alligator (Or help my husband do it)
  84. Learn how to identify 15 trees by their leaves
  85. Become Scuba certified
  86. Skydive
  87. Go camping for a week with no amenities
  88. Floss my teeth daily for a month, 5 times over (AGAIN, I’ve got 2 and ¾ years people!) Let’s DO THIS
  89. Take a pole-dancing class
  90. Recycle weekly
  91. See the Northern Lights
  92. Do the Foodie Pen Pal Challenge each month
  93. Write Thank You Cards for all gifts etc. received
  94. Start a homemade dog treat business
  95. Take a cupcake decorating class
  96. Actually make it to Hocking Hills for our Anniversary (Or the Smokies, whichever)
  97. See Mumford and Sons, Tool and the Foo Fighters in concert if applicable
  98. Stop crossing my legs
  99. Have questionable moles removed
  100. Do a back bend/walk over
  101. Have sex in 15 public places

Wish me luck!!!

Every Journey Begins with One Step

In my case, it began with 87423 steps (or however many were in today’s c25k workout)

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I’m on week 2 day 2, and did great! Converting to the midfoot strike running is awkward, I feel like I really have to concentrate on running, and that I’m braking and hitching as I run. My calves feel awesome though! (They’re screaming at me right now, calling me a delusional traitor)

Tonight’s agenda, once my delicious dinner digests, calls for yoga from the Loverly Sarah Beth she is my muse, I want to be like her when I grow up!

I also will do some of the isolated muscle workouts Mrs Countdown From 50 has laid out this week for our 8 week fitness challenge!!!

I guess I should post today’s weight, since it is the 1st day……

193.8!

I will have my hubby take measurements this evening, and will post them as welllllllllll.

I have a little over a month until the COLOR RUN in Cleveland, and I am SOOOO excited!!!! It also means a little over a month until I GRADUATE, and until my FAMILY comes to visit!!! (I haven’t seen them in almost 2 years) I’m more excited about seeing them, I think, then I am about graduating!

We are also buying kayaks in the not-so-distant-future, and will add that to my daily workout. MMMMmm I cannnnot WAIT, I can see the lake from my house, and it will be nothing to carry a 50# kayak across the street every day. I am so incredibly excited about that!

I think we have decided on this make/model… I’ve read a million reviews, and think this is where it’s at….

Old Town Dirigo 120

In sunrise,of course 😉

Off to digest, and do the laundry!

BE WELL! BE STRONG! BE YOURSELF!

My 8 Week Fitness Challenge Goals

I am participating in Countdown From 50’s 8 Week Fitness Challenge (< go there for the details and to sign up!!)

Basically it consists of 8 weeks of varying fitness, eating and motivation challenges to kick your butt into shape. It starts SUNDAY.

Our first homework assignment is to come up with attainable and realistic goals to shoot for during the 8 weeks, and in the long run….. so……….

I want arms like this

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Toned, not BULKY, feminine, pretty…..

I don’t want my thighs to touch. I want to be able to wear a denim mini skirt without feeling self conscious, or rubbing myself raw in the process…. I want lean legs. I have short legs, and want them to look longer, leaner…

like this:

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HELL If I could gear toward something like this:

fitcurvyI’d be a happy camper 🙂

But really……

My long term goals are as follows-

Lose 50 lbs (I am at 195 right now, I would like to hit 145)

Run a half marathon (December 1st is the Space Coast Marathon/Half, my goal for this year, it’s a big one, since it’s a DESTINATION race to my beautiful homeland in Florida)

And be able to do this pose:

Makes my mouth water...

Makes my mouth water…

Whew!!!

Is it hot in here??? (That is so damn cool I can NOT get over it)

 

Anywhoo…. my Short term goals are….

By the end of 8 weeks:

…I will have lost 20 pounds. At 4 weeks, if I am not around -10#, I will revise whatever it is I’m doing…

…I will have my fitness time down to a habit and not a chore. I enjoy exercising now, and want to channel that positivity toward a routine, NO EXCUSES!

…I will be eating healthier (I can’t WAIT for the garden to mature! For Farmer’s Markets! For FRESH, IN SEASON veggies!!!) and making healthy choices all the time, instead of gorging and glugging away my hard-earned work…

… I will be able to run a 5k without going into cardiac arrest, or exploding from every orifice of my body….

… I will be a motivation to others to ditch their unhealthy lifestyles and serve as an ambassador to healthy living!

 

All attainable, and realistic.

READY FOR SUNDAY!!!!!!! I am excited. I think…….. maybe….. I will post some before pictures of my wonderfully hot bod….
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Maybe…… 😉

 

Excuses Are Not Welcome Anymore

I am tired of excuses. I make them all the time. I hear other people make them. I’m just tired of them.

 

FROM HERE ON, I WILL NOT MAKE EXCUSES

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And that goes for not just running or fitness, it goes for life in general.

I’m too lazy to go down the stairs to the basement sometimes, so I just drop whatever it may be into the laundry shoot.

I let items accumulate next to the upstairs steps so I don’t have to make so many trips.

What.

The.

Fuck.

No more of that.

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I have a babysitting snafu for tomorrow (Which really really really gets my blood boiling. You wanna talk angry???? You wanna talk crazy???? I GOT YOUR CRAZY) and have to scramble to find a replacement pronto so I can get my Nursing School pictures done.

Ok.

I’ve had the FLU for the past two days and still did what I needed to do. I’m talking nausea whenever I’m vertical. Poop. Ooodles of poop. Fever. Chills. Did I mention the poop?

But I still worked, and did the whole mom thing, and wife thing, and housework thing.

breathe in…………… breathe out………….

I need to channel the frustration I’m feeling and direct it back into myself, in the form of this challenge-

I will Imagine my future self getting mad at me for the excuses I’m pulling today. This rage, this frustration and DISAPPOINTMENT over some lame excuse, over the easy road….

Now I will stop making excuses and just do what needs to be done.

It’s called life, boys and girls.

Nothing worth doing comes easy,

“Nothing in the world is worth having or worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty… I have never in my life envied a human being who led an easy life. I have envied a great many people who led difficult lives and led them well.”

― Theodore Roosevelt

WELL PUT TEDDY!!!

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