Last night I told Justin when my alarm goes off he has to push me out of bed. He came back with- due to his present condition and advice of the attending physician he is not allowed to push/pull or lift anything over 50 pounds. (He has an inguinal hernia and has a surgery consult Tuesday!)
So instead when my alarm went off at 7 I had him kick me. It sort of worked. 10 min later I got out of bed And got dressed:
I’m officially starting my half marathon training today. I’m trying out a run/walk interval set- today was 4min run/1min walk. It was nice and cool out, with the foreboding black sky creeping toward me, so it was pleasant. I did we’ll for the first day, I think. The whole set repeats for 45 min. I did it for 35 before heading home. Tomorrow is cross training for an hour. Maybe I’ll use that gym membership I bought a month ago and elliptical/bike??!!!!!?????
I’m going to start up p90x again as well. Woooooooooo doggie!
Donate to st Jude’s and help me meet my fundraising goals! I’m running 19.3 miles in 2 days- donate $19.30!!!!!
I haven’t turned my computer on in 3 weeks, thanks to this smaaaaht phone
I have, however, been running a bit. And squatting. And planking. Follow me on Instagram @willamsterdam to see my progress, pictures of my cat and other Random ditties I feel I must share with the world.
I ran a 10 minute mile the other day!!!!!!! Had to crawl the rest of my workout but hot damn it felt good!! It’s been so blazing balls hot the last few days (and prior to it rained for a grand total of 18 days straight) its been challenging to get outside and run. I have my alarm set for 4 AM to go run (“run, you fool!” Is the title of my alarm 😉 LOTR anyone? ) but have turned the alarm off each and every time I’ve tried. Lets see about tomorrow.
I also purchased a gym membership! Today I actually worked up the nerve to go for the first time in 2 weeks. (I really am pathetic) I ellipticalled for 20 min then left because the machines intimidated me and I didn’t know how to use them. Next time ill look for an employee and have them enlighten me. It’s a small gym, that too intimidates me. But I’m all in for a year so I have to gtf over it and do this!!
I hope you all are well and good and happy. I will update more I promise promise!
Till then- be radiant!
Today was my last day of nursing school!
I was announced the class speaker, so I officially have to come up with a speech for graduation…
And I’m still waiting to see if I am valedictorian. It will be close, I think. Super close. Upset stomach close………. ugh…………. I got way too many 100’s on tests throughout the year to NOT get it. We will see….
I think my new-found allergies have been kicking my butt while running. What’s today… Friday, so…. Wednesday I went for a run and was able to make it a lap without feeling like my heart was going to explode out my chest cavity. Yay. I really need to start running every day, waking up early, staying up late… I need to just do it…..
I’m off for the next month! (Till the 24th, so almost 3 weeks.)
I WILL RUN EVERYDAY. I have a half marathon I’m eyeballing in December, and I sure as shit won’t make it pinning motivational quotes about running….
I need to get my brain back into the swing of things. I deserve an hour of do whatever I want to do (i.e running) every day.
Saturday was by far the worst run I’ve ever had, even worse then my 1st week running. (Okay, okay, now I may be getting a little dramatic…) But really. Check this shitaki out:
Monday, Memorial Day: I ran a mile and a half without stopping, my PERSONAL BEST.
Tuesday I precepted 3a-3p, Wednesday I worked, Thursday Justin and I went KAYAKING and got sunnnnnn burrrrnnnntttt (Pictures soon) and Friday I don’t remember what I did……… oh yeah I had a mock interview at school (nailed it)
So Saturday I go to run…. Got my new Brooks running shoes that I’ve been dying to break in…..
I can’t run half a lap around the park without gasping for air.
This is how I felt:
gasping for air, feet weighing a ton, unable to run half a lap when less than a week prior I ran 3 without stopping! What the hell????!!!!!!
I attribute it to a few things:
- I had just worked 12 hours at the nursing home on my feet
- It was oppressively hot AND humid
- I had new shoes on
- My knees were crispy lobster red from kayaking
I was miserable. I apologize to the families who heard a few F bombs
I was mad.
I know everyone has a bad run, everyone, even the elites I follow on, have shit days. It was just discouraging and straight up pissed me off, like flipping on the lights in the kitchen at 2am and seeing a cockroach scutter across the counter top…. (I grew up in Florida, everyone has roaches in Florida)
Of course you know, this means WAR!
Tomorrow I am going to lace up my shoes and try again…. this time in the morning. Tomorrow afternoon, we KAYAK!!!
On a positive note- we started 5 gallons of Rhubarb wine today! And I believe we will be bottling our strawberry wine tomorrow, huzzah!!!! The Rhubarb will be ready for Valentine’s Day.
Wish me luck for tomorrow’s run!!!!!
I just don’t want to do anything today. Or all week for that matter. I’m fed up, and am getting that crawling, fizzing, annoyed-at-the-world feeling buzzing in my soul.
I ran a mile the other night around the park up the street from me. Furthest I’d ever run without stopping. I should’ve been ecstatic, but with each lap there was a group of LATE teens EARLY 20 year olds cheering me on with
“HEY CHUB CHUB”
“RUN FATTY, RUN!”
and my personal favorite:
“HERE SHE COMES AGAIN, I CAN FEEL THE GROUND SHAKING”
Are you fucking serious?
So, needless to say I kept my mouth shut (I have to think about my nursing license now, assault and battery does not the Ohio Board of Nursing like……) After I finished my mile I quit and walked home, highly discouraged, disgusted and just ready to cry.
My husband is not the best at consoling, although he did say I should have whipped out a metal baton and ran after them screaming like a crazy person….. He initiated sex later that evening as a way to make me feel better, and I participated, but my head was not in it. I was too self-conscious and depressed.
I wish I had the confidence to just walk up to the group of people and strike up a conversation, or just start laughing, “Haha yeah I am a bit chubby but you know what I JUST RAN A MILE. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WORTHWHILE LATELY???”
So yeah. Not motivated. And my son has a new card to play when I discipline him, he starts in with the “I’m so mean and I don’t love you, I want to live with my REAL mom etc. etc”
Which, I know I shouldn’t take personally, but I do. He has been spoken to numerous times about “filling my bucket” and how that is not nice or appropriate, how it is mean etc etc
“Oh he doesn’t know what he’s saying.”
Eh, Yeah. He does. He wants to hurt my feelings.
I don’t know. I’m just down and angry at the world. I just want to sleep.
So, needless to say, I’ve only ran twice this week, and haven’t done any of my HIIT exercises. Maybe tomorrow…..
There have been victories this week though- we paid off our car, are buying kayaks tonight, I was offered a DAY SPOT at work when I graduate (!!!!!!!!) and I sternly voiced my dissatisfaction with the trash company about how I established pickup last Monday and have yet to receive my trash cans. When I was told I wouldn’t get the cans by tomorrow’s pickup day, I said that was completely unacceptable and asked to speak to the supervisor. I got a voicemail, and left her pretty much the same message. I didn’t think anything of it and was pretty sure I got the big “FU” from them in their office.
But when I got home, a new trash can and recycling can were sitting on our lawn.
So there are things to be positive about. I just have to remember:
I will kick myself in the ass and get going on this. I will earn my body. I wish I could go up to those people in 6 months time and say something……
I am tired of excuses. I make them all the time. I hear other people make them. I’m just tired of them.
FROM HERE ON, I WILL NOT MAKE EXCUSES
And that goes for not just running or fitness, it goes for life in general.
I’m too lazy to go down the stairs to the basement sometimes, so I just drop whatever it may be into the laundry shoot.
I let items accumulate next to the upstairs steps so I don’t have to make so many trips.
No more of that.
I have a babysitting snafu for tomorrow (Which really really really gets my blood boiling. You wanna talk angry???? You wanna talk crazy???? I GOT YOUR CRAZY) and have to scramble to find a replacement pronto so I can get my Nursing School pictures done.
I’ve had the FLU for the past two days and still did what I needed to do. I’m talking nausea whenever I’m vertical. Poop. Ooodles of poop. Fever. Chills. Did I mention the poop?
But I still worked, and did the whole mom thing, and wife thing, and housework thing.
breathe in…………… breathe out………….
I need to channel the frustration I’m feeling and direct it back into myself, in the form of this challenge-
I will Imagine my future self getting mad at me for the excuses I’m pulling today. This rage, this frustration and DISAPPOINTMENT over some lame excuse, over the easy road….
Now I will stop making excuses and just do what needs to be done.
It’s called life, boys and girls.
Nothing worth doing comes easy,
“Nothing in the world is worth having or worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty… I have never in my life envied a human being who led an easy life. I have envied a great many people who led difficult lives and led them well.”
WELL PUT TEDDY!!!
20 V leg crunches (lower leg lifts)
20 isolated crunches
45min of yoga thanks to Sarah Beth Yoga on Youtube….
Yoga for Hamstring Flexibility
Yoga for Stress or Anxiety Relief
Yoga to loosen the hips
Superstretch for low backs and hips
and the Mother of them all—–
Tabata workout for upper body strength…….
Check them out! I’m telling you, they’re relaxing and over before you know it. I feel great!
But I’m sure I’ll be hobbling around the hospital tomorrow………
Anywhooo…….. Given the appropriate weather conditions, I think I’m going for a
tomorrow!!! It’s been 2 weeks, my knees feel great, and I was pranced around my basement earlier trying to figure out how to land on the balls of my feet and not my heel…
I am the former. I wish to be the latter. I will try it out tomorrow and see how it goes!!!
Be good! Or just good at it.
I have about 5 loads of laundry on my bed right now to fold and put away. They stand between me and sleep. But instead I type.
I am Sarah, a twenty-something year old LPN student ready to change my life for the better. As a soon-to-be Public Health Figure, I need to examine some aspects of my lifestyle and make healthier choices to get in shape, both inside and out, to serve as a positive role model to others.
I’ve taken care of a lot of people in my short healthcare career, many with debilitating diseases. I think of how they depend on me for everything, even something as simple as moving around in bed. I’ve gotten so lazy that I have a pile of stuff next to the hallway leading upstairs and when it gets too obnoxiously in the way I trudge my fat ass up the 15 or so steps to put the belongings where they belong. Embarrassing, I know, given many of my patients would give anything to stand, or walk, let alone graciously climb a full flight of stairs.
So, I run for those who can’t.
I’m making a list of all the runs and walks supporting various diseases, pledging to help raise awareness while I exercise my body. If you are interested, here are some links to their events. Find an event in your area and run in honor of someone who can’t!
These are races or walks I have researched so far. If anyone has other organizations they would like me to add, please let me know!
Has anyone participated in any of these events? Please share your motivating stories!